AIO – Boyfriends Reaction To Me Being In Hospital

A few weeks ago my boyfriend (20) got very sick and I ended up at his house for a week to try to avoid bringing it home to my family. I took care of him the best as I could with it being finals week at college. While he was gone taking an exam I deep cleaned his room for him and literally scrubbed his vomit off of nearly every surface in his bathroom even though I am terrified of vomit. I stayed with him until he was mostly better. Flash forward to December 23rd – 26th I (20 F) was hospitalized due to Acute Hypoxic Respiratory Failure caused by pneumonia. I was septic on arrival and they told me I was very lucky that I did not end up in the ICU. I was on constant oxygen and a bunch of medicine to try to fight it off. Of course I wanted him there but I knew the timing was the worst possible because of the holidays. He told me he would come see me one of the days after he was finished with family stuff but then kept making noncommittal statements such as “I need to pack for my trip” (he’s going on a cruise in January). Along with this, he wouldn’t reply for up to 12 hours to messages or phone calls knowing I was in the hospital. He called me one time on his own and it was after I begged him to. He quickly became irritated that I wanted/needed him and I can’t help but feel betrayed. The outcome of this could have been a lot worse and it feels like he doesn’t care and wasn’t worried about losing me. He hasn’t been checking up on me and my recovery either and stated that I need to “let go of what he said or move tf on.”