AIO I wanna break up but i am just so weak to do that?

I met my boyfriend a year and three months ago, and I hate to admit how much my self-esteem has plummeted since then. I struggle with acne, and I’ve tried everything to treat it—going to dermatologists and following all kinds of treatments—until I realized that my gut health was the real issue. I have a lot of stomach and gastrointestinal problems, so I’m focusing on treating that now, and my skin has improved a bit.

But my boyfriend constantly criticizes me. He tells me how disgusting my skin is and how much it bothers him because he has to look at it all the time. He’s been like this since the beginning, never really liking anything about me. He used to tell me how his ex was smart, and I wasn’t, which led to constant arguments. He eventually stopped saying that, but six months later, he found something new to criticize—my style. He keeps comparing me to his ex, saying she had better style and nicer hair.

From day one, it feels like he hasn’t liked anything about me. Whenever I ask him to stop comparing me to his exes, he’ll stop for a while, but then, after a month, he’ll find something else to compare. It’s not normal, and he’s completely shattered my self-esteem. I wasn’t like this before.

Now, I hate my face. I can’t stand looking at myself in the mirror. I think everyone is better and smarter than me. I’ve stopped posting on social media, which I used to do regularly, and I just hate myself. I also hate to admit that I hate him too. I’m constantly anxious about meeting him, my heart races, and I’ve even started thinking about wearing a mask around him, even though I don’t normally wear one to hide my acne. But with him, I just can’t stand it.

Every time I try to break up with him, he tells me I’ll just go back to being the “loser” I was before, and that he changed my life for the better. Maybe it’s because I feel so weak that I keep staying, even though deep down, I know he’s destroying me