AITAH for wanting to take a break from my wife after she screamed at me at Christmas in front of the other guests?

My wife and I have been married for 10 years and we have 3 children aged 3,5, and 8. A couple of nights ago, our family hosted the Christmas party, where we invited siblings, parents, and grandparents.

The party was going great, and it was much needed for me after a long year at work. There were a lot of jokes cracked, and I did get pretty drunk by the end. When I got up to go the restroom, I accidentally dropped the glass of water, and the glass broke. I knew my wife would be angry, but I immediately cleaned it up. However, after I was done cleaning, my wife asked me to come to the bedroom.

At the room, my wife shouted really loudly at me. I could see she was really angry. She kept shouting about how she warned me not to get drunk at the party and things like that. I told my wife everyone could hear, and my wife didn’t stop, she just kept shouting. However, when I apologised, my wife immediately stopped shouting, and she cooled down after that. When I got out of the room, it was obvious everyone had heard my wife screaming at me. It was really awkward, and I felt humiliated. They all left shortly after.

When I woke up the next morning, my wife apologised a lot for the previous night and even broke down in tears. When she hugged me, I just left the bed; and went to our children. Luckily since we had put our children to sleep early the previous night, they did not hear the shouting. My wife apologised a lot the rest of the day, but I just felt dead inside. I told my wife I need some space from her. My only focus was our children, and to ensure they had a good Christmas. And we did have a good Christmas yesterday.

However, at the end of the day, when I went to sleep on the couch, my wife was begging me and crying a lot to come on the bed. I told my wife to just give me some space. I told her upfront that I’m losing feelings for by the minute, and the more she tries to force it, the more I feel like I just want to consider divorce. I’ve never used the divorce word ever and I never thought I would. But that’s where my head’s at right now.

AITAH?